What We Did This Summer - 2

Unplanned things that happened

Not all things go as planned.  But still, we can say that even in those moments a person can find happiness. Some of the things from Part One can also be included in this section.

1)    We saw fireworks!

2)    We saw a hedgehog!

3)    We were around the English language school when the alarm brought the security and the police (of course, we are not responsible for switching the alarm)

4)    We spoke to a person who can’t speak – not a good experience I must say, but it was a bit strange

5)     All the above things happened in one night

6)    W e did not see any falling stars, but we actually prepared ourselves; magical moment on the balcony in a cloudy but warm night (see number 8 from Part One)

7)     We went to the theatre – our first meeting after more than a year apart from each other. We went to see this year’s play, presented by the Student Theatre. Sadly or not, this year I was among the people watching the performance. A strange feeling it is to be just a spectator. 

8)     drinking Korean –made juice with aloe.

Two weddings and two funerals

As I mentioned before, I went to my friends’ wedding in June (I was a bridesmaid, too!)

The pictures of the first wedding finally arrived and they are truly hilarious. Not because of the faces I made in some of the photos, but also the whole atmosphere is very positive and filled with happy vibes. The newlyweds are a wonderful couple and, I must add, that they deserve this happiness, after all the struggle they have been to (it’s very personal and it more information won’t be given). I wish them long years love, health and happiness.

The second wedding was at the end of July. I wore a custom made dress by my mother. It feels good to write it like that – “custom-made” – just like “made by a famous designer”, but it was made by my mom and I think that is even better.

A very fun and light experience amidst the very warm weather, this wedding had its own charm and another good asset – more young people than the old guests. I was there with the couple from wedding number one and it was such a relief (a lot of unfamiliar people = nervousness).

I am glad that I was invited to both weddings and to have such amazing friends that respect me – something that I think I miss in our society or at least in my life recently. To be invisible most of the time may be comforting but it can be painful for you self-confidence in moments when you want to be heard or seen.

About the funerals… I actually wasn’t present at any one of them. It may sound very rude to include them here, but the people mentioned had more or less a significant part in my life or how it goes at all.

At the beginning of August our young colleague to whom I actually have been substitute to, died from skin cancer. She was 25 years old, young and had her life in front of her. Oli and I know her from before; we even went to a tour to Germany together with the choir. When she became a lot worse in her illness I had to take her place for a while. I remember the week before her death I was hoping that she would come back soon and I imagined how I would explain to her all the new things at work... May her soul find peace.

The second person, even closer to me that is not among us anymore, is our class teacher. She taught us Bulgarian Language and Literature and was with us for four precious years, trying to hear each story in one way or another, trying to make us feel valuable and loved. I am not sure that I have all the appropriate words nor the strength to describe her in the most genuine way and also, to say how deeply this affected me. Our class doesn’t have a parent anymore. In two years, if we gather altogether, there won’t be that important person I would like to share all my excitement, bitterness and grown-up thoughts about life. She is just… gone.

Apart from these two cases, that had a great impact, a lot of my surroundings experienced losses of their close people not only in August, but in 2016 at all. I really feel that this year is not my or our year at all, but I stand here, trying to pass all through the hardships, saying that it could be even worse. I am thankful that at least I have my close people healthy and happy around me (or at least trying not to lose contact with me). And I am grateful to see that there are people who actually care about me. Not on Facebook, Twitter, Instagram or any other social media platform, but in my life.

Exciting things ahead

                         

Angers, here she comes!

Oli was accepted to study E-tourism in Angers. New city, new people, all alone in the rented flat – very challenging perspective, yet very exciting! Of course, she would be even more busy (she already is), but this won’t stop me from supporting her, although I truly miss her and the feeling varies from deep sadness to strong frustration sometimes. Anyway, good luck to you, my dearest friend! Fighting!

Ideas and positive thoughts

Recently I have written a lot of things that come to my mind. I have been doing this for years, but not every time in a structured way. It has been almost two years since I started my current job and started actively writing almost everything that I feel and I have gathered a lot of thoughts, experience and ideas to share. Although they do not have much to do with the work I have, I must say that it is time for me to step ahead and start doing (some) of them. I have this feeling which was lost for a while, that good things will happen. And I think it is time to embrace the positive thoughts and put my introverted, melancholic and depressed side in the wardrobe of my fears for a while. We will see. :)

I think this describes in brief what I wanted to write after Oli left for France in mid-August. Of course, if I was more persistent with the blog, these words would have come in a more creative and certainly not so boring way, perhaps each week during the summer. But, anyway, I am glad that I resumed most (but not all, of course) of the things I wanted to share. I will not write about the future plans for this blog, because big intentions don't always count as big actions.

Okay, that was it. For now.

Bye.

R.