Van Gogh

Chère Rali,

J'ai lu cette petite pensée à Van Gogh et  j'ai décidé à te la partager.

Et, mon cher ami, ne perdez pas de vue que Paris, c'est Paris. Il n'y a qu'un Paris, et bien que la vie y soit difficile, et même si cela devrait s'aggraver, devenir encore plus difficile, l'air de France éclaircit les idées, et fait du bien, beaucoup de bien.

P.S : peut-être, nous irons  ensemble un jour... pour nous éclaircir les idées haha ! 

Bisous et à bientôt ! 

O.

Centre Pompidou, Paris 75004 

To My Dearest Friend

Happy Birthday to you, my dear friend!

Be always happy, healthy and brave!

Dream big, smile and show the world (and to yourself) that you are unique and amazing!

See you soon!

Take care!

Hugs,

R.

Decisions

It took me some time to initiate this, but I shall continue now.

When we created this blog almost three years ago, our main purpose was it to be a place where we share things that usually get lost in the chats and brief conversations we have via Skype. There are so many untold or not quite understood thoughts, especially when we jump from one topic to another. We joked that we may even become famous, and, thankfully, it didn’t happen. Of course we knew that something like our blog couldn’t become a desired place to visit for many people. It was our place, our cozy place where we share parts from our lives that usually pass unnoticed, places we visited or we desire to visit, music we are currently listening to, our dreams, worries, some wisdom and many more. It was done, I believe, with the hope that we won’t lose our connection and communication.

Anyway.

Recently, I noticed that many of the things I share are just left to float here. Like a dustbin, full of thoughts. Useless thoughts. Useless dreams and fears. And our communication really seems to fade away. Not only here - and that’s the bothering part. Because we both know that you’re busy enough to take time and write here. And that’s okay. But when a thing, which was written here, seems to be told in vain during a normal conversation or chat, I ask myself “Was it even worth it to share, when they pretend to listen? ”. So, that makes everything written here useless.

I am not the type to say directly what’s exactly bothering me on the Internet; usually the person I care about has to find this by themselves in all the metaphors and hints I give. To read between the lines. It’s not done on purpose; it’s just the way I communicate sometimes. Some people never reflect on the way they speak during the day. Unfortunately, sensitive people like me do this. And it’s not only the self-reflection, but also a reflection of other people’s words. And when a person I care about doesn’t understand, especially when we are far from each other, I feel really disappointed, but decide to keep it for myself. Complicated, right? It wouldn’t be like that if we were face to face, the conversation would be different and simple.

Well, distance s*cks, because it really spoils our communication. Nothing can be compared with real-life experiences shared with your best friend. And distance sometimes really f*cks everything. All these innovations do not help the way we feel about a cherished person, they make it even worse, because of all the misunderstandings, unseen texts or songs that aren’t even listened to, forgotten important facts, etc., which build our everyday communication, or in fact – destroy the trust in the people you are close to.

Of course this blog post doesn’t search for the guilty person or even the victim, none of this  – it is just a couple of paragraphs with thoughts that aim to be seen by just one person. My friend.  

So, back to the topic - I am taking a little break from this place. At first, the decision was only regarding the music posts (because they seem to be not so interesting for you), but then I decided that it would be okay to stop posting here at all. It won’t affect our blog in a bad way, because we rarely post here and except us, there aren’t other people who wish to read our stories. More important is to continue our connection in one way or another and if the blog can’t be counted as a good way to communicate, then we should better abandon this practice.

It’s not the end. There will be some posts, maybe some wisdom during a rainy Wednesday, but when – I do not know. I won’t stop writing, of course, but it won’t appear here – perhaps my best listeners are my notebooks.

Bye for now.

R.

Wednesday Wisdom And Some Music

Wow, just wow! Thanks for your long letter! Raya is so beautiful! How does she behave, is she a good dog?  Did you take the photo of her with your new phone?

Yay, girl, congratulations on the successful exam session! Well, I know that these days you are again very busy, so maybe my wishes are a bit late, but anyway, you did well and I am proud of you!

It’s really fascinating that you enjoy watching hockey and it’s great that you attend such diverse events. I can only imagine the thrill!

Korean food, aah!  Girl, you eat every dish from my Korean food bucket list, I’m crying, this is fate! Hopefully one day you will experience it in Korea and with me (hehe!).  Thinking that you have found such a wonderful friend like Heejin who is eager to cook for you, makes me feel calm and I know that you are in safe hands and protected.

 

February

Apparently, this is my least favourite month of the year. The start of 2017 was very optimistic for me – I haven’t felt happy, without having done something great in my life, for a long time. However, the February mood struck me like a truck. The shifting weather, the dirty and slippery snow, the tiredness, lack of sleep, and also the lack of fresh and nutritional food, typical for warmer seasons, got me to a state of mental breakdown, like literally. What you “saw” during out Facebook chat during the weekend was just a small part of the mess I have become for the past couple of weeks. And I am very sorry and ashamed for that. The exact reasons for this can be explained, but I do not wish to do it. One thing I know is that you can escape for some period of time, but if you let yourself be lazy for a while, you are directly going back there, in the depression hole. And another thing - It is easy to give hope when you feel good, but it is really difficult to receive it when you feel lonely.

Anyway, let me finish this post in the most positive way.  Today is meant to be a day for wisdom and I want to share something, related to the things I just shared above. One is a song and the second (and even more related) – a quote.

As you know, Bangtan Boys are having a comeback. In my last posts I wrote about Spring day – the teaser and the MV.  Recently they also released the music video for Not Today. The song has a very different vibe – it is energetic and motivating. While Spring day aims to provide consolation and “a calm pat on the shoulder”, Not Today does it in the opposite way – by pushing you out of your shell, telling you to fight and never surrender to your fear. Honestly, after Spring day, I really needed something like Not Today. Emotional songs are very appreciated and loved, but they make me… very emotional. It’s a bit of a relief that they released such strong song to cheer us up (the fans).

So, this is one of the things I wanted to share. I hope that you will like it and it will motivate you during your new semester.

           

            To (really) finish today’s Wednesday Wisdom, I am posting the promised quote, which I hope will inspire both of us to never give up and to be braver in our dreams. This time I will join you as a recipient of the wishes I always send you, because, apparently, I also need them. This quote is from Tomorrow, a song from the early years of Bangtan. The lyrics really relate to us, even though we are not the same age. I cannot say this is the exact translation,  the word order varies, depending on who translated it, but I will share the one from colorcodedlyrics.com:

“Because the dawn right before the sun rises is the darkest, even in the far future, never forget the you of right now.”

Hugs,
R.

 

Le weekend après les examens

Chère amie, 

Une fois les examens finis, c’était un tel soulagement … que je ne peux pas te décrire haha. Un weekend pour se reposer mais en fait c’était un weekend trop chargé ! Je n’avais rien de prévu mais tout d’un coup j’ai eu des propositions de sorties donc je n’ai pas pu refuser. 

Le vendredi le 6 janvier, c’était le dernier jour de mes examens. J’avais prévu d’aller à la salle de sport tout de suite après l’examen et de me dépenser à 100%. Et c’est bien ce que j’ai fait – une session de cardio ATTACK. C’est un cours très dynamique sous le sons d’une musique très intense + une séance de renforcement musculaire - le fameux PUMP où on fait des squattes avec des barres de poids de 8kg, des développés-couchés ou encore des fentes. Voici un lien de la page Facebook de ma salle de gym « Wefit » uù tu pourras voir des photos de mes coachs et des nombreuses vidéos des séances. 

Le même jour Heejin m’avait proposé de se voir pendant le weekend, car elle avait des choses à me raconter. Je leurs a proposé de venir chez moi le vendredi soir car on sera plus tranquille à parler, rigoler au lieu d’aller au restaurant. D'autre part, ça sera plus économique si on se fait à manger à la maison un repas coréen chez moi haha 😆

Nous avons mangé le repas coréen «Tteok Buk Ki» 
Dans ce plat coréen il y a non seulement des légumes et du bœuf mais aussi avec Tteok. Tteok ce sont des pâtes du riz blanc, ils n'ont pas de goût et ils sont très collants avec une texture ... bizarre hahaha. Sinon Heejin a utilisé la sauce Japchae aussi et soja. 

Le dimanche c’était une journée spéciale en France. Il existe une petite tradition qui se déroule chaque premier dimanche du mois de janvier – l'Épiphanie ou le Jour des Rois, la fête célèbre la visite des rois mages à l'enfant Jésus pour cette occasion les familles prépare un gâteau - la galette des Rois.

C’est un gâteau qui est fait d’une pâte feuilletée et une crème frangipane c’est la recette originale, sinon pour ceux qui n’aiment pas la crème frangipane, change avec de la pomme. C’est pourquoi Margot et Sébastien nous ont invité chez eux pour le goûter le dimanche le 8 janvier pour partager cette coutume. Donc la galette des Rois sert à l'occasion de tirer ses Rois mages et pour cela dans le gâteau est caché une fève, celui qui l'obtient, devient le Roi ou la Reine de la journée. (Malheureusement je n'ai plus de photos de cette journée là... mon portable a décidé de s'éteindre et j'ai perdu toutes mes photos !) :( 



Le match hockey 

J'ai assisté à 2 match de hockey et c'était vraiment énorme comme ambiance. J'ai adoré ! C'est vrai que c'est un peu cher mais nous avons eu des places gratuites donc on a bien profité haha. Mais ça vaut le coût d'aller au moins une fois par mois. L'équipe d'Angers c'est le Ducs d'Angers vs Les Bruleurs de Loups (Grenoble) mais j'ai préféré le 2nd matche quand on a joué contre l'équipe GAMYO d'Epinal ( l'équipe qui venait de la région de Margot et Sébastien haha donc je pense que tu sais qui a supporté qui hahaha). J'aime bien ce sport ! 

P.S: Tu me manques aussi .... mon chère amie ! La chanson de BTS est très belle et les paroles sont vraiment en thème avec le moment. C'est comme une nostalgie pour le printemps et le beau temps quand toute la nature se réveille. 

"[...] Бъдеще покрито с косми" hahaha oui ça m'a fait rire mais s'il te plaît ... pas des chats, tu sais que je ne les aimes pas hahaha. CHIEN ! <3. D'ailleurs, j'ai une petite nouvelle pour toi, notre famille a un membre de plus. Elle s'appelle Рая c'est un Boxer bringé. 💕 Elle est trop mignonne ! 

Et sinon... tu as le temps encore à tout changer et poursuivre tes rêves ^^


Bisous,

Olly

"You know it all… You’re my best friend..."

"...Snowflakes are falling

Getting farther away

I miss you (I miss you)

I miss you (I miss you)

How much more do I have to wait?

How many more nights do I have to stay up?

Until I can see you? (until I can see you?)

Until I can meet you? (until I can meet you?)

Past the end of this cold winter

Until the spring comes again

Until the flowers bloom again

Stay there a little longer

Stay there..."

Even Though Spring Hasn't Come Yet, I Will Wait for That Special Spring Day

My dear!

Although the full MV will be revealed on Sunday (Bulgarian time), I can't wait to show you the teaser, which is literally...aah! Their voices, these scenes... Fans have already found the symbolism in every possible thing, featured here (even some creepy stuff), but this is too overwhelming for me to handle now. I will just enjoy these seconds of pure melody and wait patiently for the full MV, as I have been waiting and jumping in excitement every time they posted something for the last three weeks. I hope that you will enjoy it, as much as I do! Expect the full music video very soon!

Hugs,

R.

P. S. I miss you so much, my dearest friend! These scenes remind me a lot about our time together. I hope that one day we will be reunited again, not only (occasionally) in the summer, but also during spring, my most favourite season. And, maybe, during one beautiful spring day we will walk together, smiling brightly, breathing the fresh air and enjoying the sun rays. It will be a special day! And, even if I am not with you now, tomorrow, or any other day, when you feel lonely and tired, you must know that you never walk alone. 

Благодаря!

Скъпа Оли,

Тъй като блогът ни се казва talk to me anyway, реших днес да ти отговоря по този начин.  

Първо искам да ти благодаря за прекрасните пожелания!!! Наистина си изкарах един чуден рожден ден, чувствах се много добре както на самия ден, така и през следващите, в които празнувах с близките си, а честитките и изненадите продължаваха. Беше наистина светло време за моята душа, ха-ха!

Обикновено този ден е доста самотен,  особено през последните години. Като изключим изненадите в гимназията (продиктувани в голяма степен от факта, че споделях рожден ден с доста по-популярен от мен съученик), както и хубавите моменти с вас, приятелите ми от хора, когато ходехме на сладкарница (мисля, че последно се събрахме всички през 2011, ако се бъркам, поправи ме), сякаш следващите години на този ден бяха останали само спомените, затрупани от зимния сняг, решил точно на моя рожден ден да се изсипе в тонове.  (Доста дълго изречение, нали? Затова обърнах на български, на английски ми е трудно да разпокъсам всичките тези мисли, като същевременно запазя и красноречието, на което държа и което поддържа живота в пасажите.) Отекващи спомени от звуци на смях, танци и музика в празна, тъмна бална зала...

В университета най-често учех за изпити, увита в някое одеало, дъвчеща нещо сладко, подкрепено със солидна доза кафе. Първите години с официална работа (разбирай стажа) бяха белязани с типично отношение на любезност, която бе показвана на самия ден. Удивително е колко добри могат да бъдат хората, когато разберат, че имаш празник! Друг е въпросът колко са искрени, но нека бъдем оптимисти! :-]

Тази година беше различно. Не, не съм ходила на дискотека и да, вас ви нямаше, особено теб, която ценя най-много от нашата групичка, разпръснала се по света (с изключение на мен – тази, която остана тук); но тази година празникът мина особено добре! Имаше изненади на работа, които не бяха подтикнати от формалната любезност. Хубаво е да се почувстваш оценен и уважаван от хората, с които прекарваш огромна част от деня си. У дома също успяха да ме развълнуват и то доста неочаквано, предвид факта, че вече отдавна не съм дете. Денят беше първият слънчев и топъл, след поредица от студени и мрачни дни. Беше прекрасно! Как да не съм благодарна и щастлива?!

Мисля, че попрекалих с приказките за себе си. Ако си стигнала дотук и си прочела всичките досегашни излияния, то те поздравявам за търпението, ха-ха! Именно то има главна роля в нашето приятелство, макар моята роля да е все още ограничена в този смисъл.

Мислех си днес да сложа някоя и друга снимка на цветята и подаръците от празника, да ти попиша за музика (Bangtan Boys се завръщат, аааа!), мечтани дестинации и филми, но ще го оставя за друг път. Нека днес бъдат само думи.

Радвам се, че си си прекарала приятно Коледните и Новогодишните празници, въпреки че трябваше постоянно да четеш за изпитите. Снимките изглеждат особено вкусни, така да ги наречем, ха-ха! Тези гозби биха събудили апетита и на най-капризния човек! Харесва ми тази твоя любов към вкусната храна, приготвена и сервирана по най-изискан вкус. 

Радвам се и те поздравявам също и за това, че си взе семестъра! Браво! Една стъпка напред към крайната цел! Сега остава и стажът... Трудно е, знам. Онзи момент, в който искаш да покажеш, че можеш да се справиш с всичко, че си способна, но сякаш никой не го вижда, щом в автобиографията ти няма описан (достатъчен) опит. Как да имаш опит, като тепърва започваш, да му се не види?!  Въпреки че сега ти се струва невероятно това да се случи, това също ще мине. Ще намериш това, което търсиш, рано или късно. И един ден, когато и опитът, и самочувствието ти далеч са надраснали неувереността и страха, когато стоиш някоя сутрин и пиеш чая си преди да тръгнеш за работа, ще видиш, че нещата в крайна сметка са се наредили. А най-хубаво ще бъде те да се наредят по най-добрия за теб начин. Който обаче зависи от теб. Мисля, че точно това е най-страшното нещо за осъзнаване. И не всеки от нас събира смелост да надделее този страх и да си каже:

 “Каквото ще да става, аз ще следвам мечтите си!”

Виж ме мен например – намерих си сравнително спокойна (и засега стабилна) работа, с определена заплата (стигаща да покрие нуждите, които преди бяха голям проблем за нашето малко домакинство, а и за някои други скромни удобства), в спокоен малък град, без всякаква перспектива за развитие. Живея с баба си и сякаш съм се вкопчила в момента и не искам да го пусна. Сигурността е доста удобна причина да не искаш да се развиваш.  А и го има и другото – как ще оставя баба си, как ще тръгна ей така, без сигурна почва и спестявания, без уговорена работа някъде другаде, какво изобщо искам и да правя в крайна сметка с живота си, че съм тръгнала да се бунтувам и т. н. Причини много, а времето си минава. Неусетно мога да се събудя един ден в празна къща, пълна единствено със стари вещи и необличани дрехи, или с потомството на животни, които нямат нито генетична, нито всякаква друга връзка с мен, освен паниците, в които им сипвам храна и вода. И емоционалният комфорт, който пък те ми дават, наред с моите алергични реакции. Светло бъдеще, покрито с котешки косми! (Надявам се да ти стане смешно, защото драмата всъщност е голяма, а чипсът свърши!)

            С тази (поредна) доза приказки, отнасящи се повече за мен, бих желала да ти кажа да не тръгваш по моя път. Бъди смела! Несигурността ще е до време, после човек претръпва и започва да се съпротивлява, не се оставя на страха и съмненията. Бъди смела! Защото после насладата от постигнатото е по-голяма.

И още нещо – не спирай да се развиваш, дори и когато се чувстваш сигурна, дори когато си мислиш, че си намерила подходящата работа. Аз направих тази грешка за миг и сега всичко сякаш е в миналото. Всички дипломи, постижения, минати обучения сякаш са на друг човек, живял отдавна. Кога бях такава? Наистина ли съм била такава?

            В никакъв случай не позволявай тази рутина и замайваща стабилност да те заковат на едно стъпало в развитието ти. Светът постоянно се променя, за щастие, или не. Разбира се, че не можеш да си абсолютно винаги в крак с всяка тенденция и нервно да очакваш поредната иновация, която ще промени живота ти, но е хубаво да не се откъсваш прекалено много от света, защото ти си част от него.

            Наистина има доста неща, които желая да ти споделя, но не винаги успявам да уцеля мястото и времето. Такъв е животът – понякога докато съберем смелост или просто намерим точните думи, моментът вече е отлетял. А хората не винаги са търпеливи да дочакат цъфтежа на пролетните цветя. Бързаме и се бавим, учим и същевременно изпускаме най-важното, комуникираме, но нереално. Такъв е животът днес...

R.

La journée spéciale !

Joyeux anniversaire, Рали !

Честит рожден ден, моя приятелко, слушателка, съветничка ... и още мноооооооого хубави неща ! Остани все така щедра и всеотдайна жена. Не се страхувай да рискуваш, просто следвай мечтите си и няма да сгрешиш :). Да не забравяме и пътуванията, дано да успееш да заминеш за Барселона или където и да е заедно с хора и да прекараш едно невероятно приключение. Разбира се вратите ми са винаги отворени за теб ! Желая ти всичко хубаво, здраве (най много настинка, но не и повече, без доктори хаха), бъди щастлива, секси, уверена и независима хаха ! 
Не знам какво друго да добавя, всъщност знам ... но няма да ми стигнат редовете хаха. Надявам се, че си имала един страхотен ден на работа и вкъщи, жалко, че не можах да споделя с теб този ден... но нищо лятото ще наваксаме ! Айде честита нова годинка + още една по корейски хахаха. 

Целувки, ma belle :*

Летни емоции

(сори не можах да направя ефекти на сни;ките хахах)

Bonne année 2017 !

Bonne année mon amie ! 

Même su je t'ai déjà dut mes voeux, je te le redis encore une fois : Bonne année ! Qu'elle soit melleur que la dernière 2016 ! Reste telle que tu es, ne change pas ! Je te souhaite de la santé, de l'amour, du bonheur dans la famille et qu'on se voit très bientôt (peut être en France ? haha) ! 
Bisous

@Jessica Pin

Moi et ma famille, nous avons passés le Noël chez nous, les trois et le menu était le suivant :

Du chapon qui est resté 1 nuit dans une marinade faite de l’eau chaude avec des citrons et des différents épices – herbes de Provence, du thym. Le chapon était accompagné de champignons et de la purée. Malheureusement, je n’ai pas pu beaucoup aider ma mère car je devais travailler pour mes examens. Cette fois, je n’ai pas eu la chance, normalement je finis les examens avant les vacances.

Le Réveillon j’ai aidé ma mère avec l’entrée (qui n’était pas trop compliqué... lol) mais nous avons décidé de faire des verrines au saumon fumé. Je devais découper le saumon à des petits morceaux avec le mixeur. Ensuite j’ai mélangé le saumon avec du mascarpone et de yaourt, j’ai assaisonné avec du poivre noir et du sel. Puis j’ai pris les verrines j’ai fait un canapé de la salade verte et j’ai mis 1 culière de la sauce.

Voici le menu du Réveillon en image :

 



































A Nouvel an, j’étais avec mes amis à Brest. Un repas très convivial avec du vin rouge et du bon bœuf bourguignon haha. Encore une super soirée, nous avons discuté, rigolé et dansé, c'était juste une soirée parfaite ! Je me suis trop amusée.

J'ai encore beaucoup de choses à te dire et surtout des photos à te montrer ! À bientôt :* 

Bisous ma belle

(Snowy) Friday Music Favourites – 6 January 2017

My deaaaar, winter has come!!!

There is a snowy fairy tale outside! We woke up like this today, haha! I am posting some photos from work for you to see.

And it still keeps snowing! We had some trouble with the transport at work (all the loadings were canceled), but the situation is still under control in the city. I hope that the temperatures won’t be too low the next days, brrrrr!

Sooo, today’s music corner is filled with songs that have been on repeat for the last couple of weeks. (No, they are not Christmas songs, haha!)

Before I start posting some of them, let me use the occasion to thank you for the wonderful music you told me about in your last post. Nao’s songs are very fresh to listen to. I especially enjoyed In the morning – it has a comforting vibe that calms your heart, despite the sad lyrics.

Well, today is a day mainly for Bruno Mars! Because of k-pop, there is a lot from Western music that stays behind and even if sometimes I try to catch up with the latest releases, I lack a lot. I heard (and enjoyed) 24K Magic at the Victoria’s secret fashion show. You know this song, you even told me  that it reminds you a lot of Justin Timberlake and Snoop Dogg’s Signs. Anyway, it's good and uplifting, although at first I expected more (maybe it depends on the current mood).

Same goes for Chunky – I love it!!! After hearing these two songs at the VS Fashion Show, I searched for more and among his new songs I found a song that you will definitely enjoy! Let me introduce to you That’s What I Like. Aah, funny and funky, it’s a song just for this bad weather outside! Although the lyrics suggest something else (haha!), the tempo and sound are bright and have a playful vibe. I must confess that I was also impressed by Lady Gaga's performances at the VS Fashion Show, too! She literally overshadowed the angels, such a diva!

There is also another song I wanted to share with you. It’s the cover of Leonard Cohen’s Hallelujah by Pentatonix. The sound is more serious and I must confess that I have listened it mostly when the situation was not so positive. Still, it is epic and rich in sounds and, of course, lyrics. Not many songs nowadays have this diversity of expression in terms of lyrics.

Well, we cannot enter 2017 without something new to listen to! Just today Ed Sheeran released two new songs after a year of break from music and social media. The trend #WelcomeBackEd has been the number one worldwide trend on Twitter for almost the whole day (beating the other trends usually created by fandoms mostly of Korean artists). The songs were among the world trends, too. I loved Castle On the Hill from the first second, but Shape of You is also good!  Ed just saved the first months of 2017!

Last, but not least – we cannot finish today’s music corner without a Korean addition! Last month Big Bang finally released their full-length album MADE and there are three fresh songs, one of which I am going to post here.

Last Dance is the perfect addition to Loser and If You in terms of music, having the same feeling and ethereal background sound. Beautiful song!

That, my dear, was for today. Till next time! Kisses and hugs! And good luck with your exams!

R.

Wednesday Wisdom/Blessings – 4 January 2017

My dear! Happy New 2017!

Today is my first day at work and everything is calm and quiet for now. Yesterday we came back from Varna with my cousin, where we spent the New Year’s Eve with auntie and little Dessy. Although they were sick (Dessi had pneumonia, but she was feeling better the time we went) and we celebrated the New Year with home slippers and cardigans, it felt great! There were fireworks we watched them on the balcony and the weather was bearable.

You have a lot of things to do, as I know. Your exams are in the next couple of days and your vacation was filled with a lot of reading and preparation. Although you started your year with some worries, don’t give up and be optimistic – everything will be okay! I wish to and your family lots of health, happiness and success during 2017! And I hope that we will meet again and have great time together! Let’s be happy and healthy during 2017! Fighting! 

Ready?...

2017, I am coming for you, hehe!